price for growing up

caution :

the following issue might be emotional to you

so if you're in a good mood

or already feeling terrible

my advice - just skip this

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recentlyam i sure just recently?

i don't feel like hanging out with friends anymore

especially.well.i don't want to name names

but i can say college life is different so no worries mates

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why?

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cause things are different now

just so different.maybe i'm the only one who thinks so

but it doesn't matter

cause to me.it's absolutely no more like how it was used to be

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when among friends there are no more just friends

means when everyone's in a relationship

no matter how they endeavor to maintain everything

act just like friends

it's different

i always remember how we all used to be

JUST FRIENDS

BROTHERS

and SISTERS

fooling around

laughing together

spanking each other

and study side by side

it's all gone

to be perfectly frank

i don't like it

but so?

there's nothing i can do

or should i say i would do

i'm not blaming anyone here

cause there's nothing to be blame on

you fell in love and be with the one you like

if you're bliss out.i feel happy for you

but gradually

i don't feel like hanging out with you guys anymore

one word : sienutter boredom

i'm sorry i feel that way

maybe you all are overwhelmed by all the love

and that's why you guys didn't feel a bit

but sorry

i perceived the change

don't try to say craps like i choose not to couple

cause that doesn't change our friendship

and so what if i am in a relationship?

does that change a shit?

no.

cause i'm not pointing that you all's wrong and i'm right

i'm just stating that the fact that things changed

it's just a different stage of life

the inevitable

which i don't like it

you can choose to not agree with me

but don't.try to change my perspective on this

i used to believe that.people would pick friends over partner

a piece of crap

i know it's lame to say

but 'love is blind'

blind ttm

despite that i feel quite sad over it

i really and truly fathom you guys

it's the reality of life

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what's done is done

i'm not hoping for anything

or demanding for a change

cause there's nothing i can do

or want to do

as long as everyone's still happy

who cares whether i am or not

for those who give a damn to what i think

that's enough

don't even feel bad please

i still love you guys

i'm already used to it

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sorry for posting this

i just need to unload myself

but who can i go to?

all my intimates are in a relationship that's how i got used to it

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see why am i depressed???ok maybe not that serious

gosh x_x

i think that's the main reason why i feel deprived nowadays

from.FUN

other than that.

college's not as fun as those days too

sigh.why...

ANYWAY~ i bought myself a new con! haha

it's violet! :D

took a series of narcissistic photos

lol what.i rarely take off my specs! hahaha

but as ridiculous as it seems

i felt sad throwing my old one away..

it's been with me for...months :'(

bye lens..:'''''( *pout

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and for some who knew.

i wanted to take some lookbook shots

like a trial

then decide whether i want to create an account myself

but...Jul was going back to her hometown

and my cousin asked me out so instead of snapping pics with lyn

i went chatime with my cousy

this time i ordered Red bean Milk Tea

it's.just like adding red beans into it -_-

but the red beans are really nice :)

maybe it's imported from Taiwan lol

tried their Roasted Milk Tea too

yea.ROASTED :D nice

lol oh ya about the lookbook shoot

in the end.i made use of my tripod

but. -____- nope lol

not going to create any account hahahaha

it's really hard to get a nice photo with tripod..

at least for me ><

and i picked the wrong spot -_-

that'sallfornow

toodle-oo

:D