Sunday, November 28, 2010

non stop

WOW! i'm blogging!
XD seriously.today's so packed with group projects!

woke up at 8.reached theone at 9 to meet up with others
went to jul's house.
designed the final costume design
then splited into 2 groups :
pyramid for corset/subang parade for fabrics

i went to subang parade with manj nadine hari and it was great
had our lunch there-the 'best food in the universe' *by hari --mcdonald
XD my first day of 'buka puasa' haha
i can actually BITE AND CHEW AND SWALLOW
muahahahhaha.yesh.it still hurts
but who cares cause as long i can eat something other than PORRIDGE right~ ^^
this morning i was thinking.how come with one week of PORRIDGE ONLY
i didnt lose any weight

then when i went downstairs
my kakak showed me an 'omg' look
she said i'm getting thinner and thinner.its so scary
i was SO HAPPY~ :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
but after i ate mcdonald
i feel...fats coming back... oh well
control! XD

and wow seriously since morning i've been non stop working until now
yea.still doing my research.though i'm blogging.

my grandma just asked : what time are you going to sleep???
she made it sounds like its 2 a.m. when its only 11p.m -____-
i told her : c'mon its so early!its like.11!
then she laughed .

i still remember 11 was consider late for me when i was in high school
those were the days.. :D

right after we did the costume
me and jul continued our stop-motion film
then dinner
then went to michael's house to do our LCS

:D non stop wei.whart ther helle *indian slang XD
but i'm not tired.oh well.continue my research.
everything will be great after wed :D
i know it will XD

loves .bye

Saturday, November 27, 2010

soul

my mum just suggested me to change course
she meant it

alah.seeing her own pig daughter
who thinks sleeping's everything
actually set alarms to wake up early for every weekend
just for assignments
its very unexpected
its rather suprising for myself too
well.its just .passion maybe? trying to reach my goal here

remember me jul and serena was at kfc that day
talking bout seniors quiting toa
i said i don't get it.
they've gone through so much already.and they're almost there
why quit on the verge of completing everything

but i think i can understand now
i cannot guarantee anything now
but i will try my best to strive for the better :)

sometimes i wonder.why can't i rush everything on weekdays
and enjoy my weekend.
i can't really do anything now
with all the lacking of materials

assignments :
CG finals
-lost my pendrive .i didnt save it in my com and its almost done.fml enough?

Drawing
- yea.colours all dried up and formed colour stones .need to get new ones and do it tomorrow.i still did it though.for i have no idea why

History
-coming out with final design and going to get the materials tomorrow *hopefully

Letterform
-did my part of the crops.tomorrow morning need to do test shots~

LCS
-oh yea. the due's on Wed.and we still haven't pick a place yet. holy.but it will be done soon and it will be great! YEAH! yea... :D trying to stay positive here people.POSITIVE~ XD

Design
-maximilism research and most probably sketches. 101 design: got stuck at the 50+++th .paper sculpture : did some testing.going to get the materials maybe on mon

Figures
-yea.figures...as usual .2 portraits.6 nudes.which i have to more good ref .and i have no idea i cant access to the nudes in deviantart.oh man.tell me why~ i'm 18! :D going to ask a friend to save it for me later

so yea.what can i do?! .design..
reminds me of a miley cyrus song

"when i look at you" :
everybody needs INSPIRATION~~ (yea i really do.a lot)
everybody needs a soul~~~ ( haha.i need a break for my soul)

i'm fine ..

Thursday, November 25, 2010

:D

despite saying how much i enjoy being single
but still
when i was told that one of my friend has couple
i was.feeling.so envious

why is it so hard to be in a situation.where
both fall in love together
why...
be together because you love him/her
but nothing else
this aint something easy to get

haha.but you know what
CINCAI LA
hahahhahhaahha.sorry.
mien sot liao
single's fine :D

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

e

i don't understand why
i can be so cold and unfriendly when i'm emo
i don't get it

i can just ignore everyone's feeling. *well not completely
but i'll just don't care
it's quite scary that i somehow can be like that
i don't know why
am i stroppy?
no i'm not
it is because of assignments?
i don't know
cannot be cause of friends right.
i really don't know

but for now.i really just don't feel like doing anything else.
but to sleep

i'm sorry if i treated anyone of you in a really cold manner
or i don't give a damn attitude

bye.nights

Monday, November 22, 2010

17.98 yrs old

我哭了
haha.yes i did.
i'm too dizzy to tell my story today

1 more hour and i'm 18
i planned to live my last day of 17 with joy and laughters
but i cant even smile now
-__________________________-

i'm not sad.i just.don't feel like smiling
trying to not move my teeth mouth gum everything
it's still bleeding now
i'm like : can you stop bleeding already? -_-

maybe cause of the sleeping pill i ate just now before i sleep
i feel dizzy now


k.bye.happy birthday to myself .

Sunday, November 21, 2010

tooth

why am i here?
i should be working on my assignments but yea
why am i here
WHY?!
BECAUSE OF THE STUPID BAS**** WISDOM TOOTH

yes.how smart is it to decide to grow now
NOW
and giving me all the pain the torture
when i have so many to do

other than that
cause of YOU STUPID TOOTH
i can't eat much
yea i can slim down but NOW I'M HUNGRY
I CAN'T FOCUS ON MY ASSIGNMENTS WHEN I'M HUNGRY
and with all ur pain! even when i'm NOT EATING
is killing my mood!!!!!
worse is that nothing can soothe you away!
and worst!
i have to suffer until saturday cause i don't know why's that dentist having such a good business
his booking's all full on wed!

@#$%^&*()#$%^%^
stupid hell tooth

k.i'm done.bye

Saturday, November 20, 2010

wisdom tooth

still had sleeping pill last night
but i only took half :)
woke up and went straight to the dentist
and i have no idea why is this happening to me :
a not-so-wisdom-wisdom tooth is growing
why i say not so wisdom?
cause its an annoying tooth!
its so stupid that it chose this time to come
my very peak season for assignments,finals projects and tests

it's causing me all the pain.at the gum and i feel the pain 24/7 now
even when i'm not eating
and when i'm eating?
TT i guess only taufu doesnt hurt now
but i actually think its.hmm.cool?
well.you have to experience everything.at least once in a life time .right~ XD
but still.it hurts! XD

i can't smile/laugh .which is .quite torturing
oh! i havent tell you the worst part!
the dentist suggested me to get that tooth extracted
he showed me the part that he'll operate and omgosh! its big!
i was never scared to see a dentist
but this is seriously too much~ XD
i think there's about.1 inch??
TT i have to admit.i'm really scared to do this
but if i leave it and let it grow.it will squeeze my other teeth out and.
its going to be really ugly -___-
for this.i'll do it.XD
but for now .i cant do anything and i just don't eat panadol :)

was watching badminton while having my dinner just now
shrieked like no body's business.in high pitch .XDDD
my dad always say i look like a boy when i watch badminton tournaments
haha.no doubt.i'm never really like a girl la.hahaha
but its worth my screaming!
Lee Chong Wei won!!
he beat chen jin 2-1!
haha.my only 'Malaysia boleh' time. :DDD
and now
i'm watching KooKienKiat and TanBoonHong vs indon!
they're leading! i'm so happy~ XD


finished my letterform project crops
i enjoyed making it
it's like i'm making my own doll house XD

i seriously have tons of assignments.
but most of them are group projects and i can say
all the group projects .progression =max.20%

k.let me list it out again.or i'll seriously forget :

-CG assignment *cause of my bad luck.the com hanged when i'm about to save -_-
-CG project
-Letterform stop motion film
-History costume design project *5% only and the due's next next week @_@
-History test *study
-LCS final test *study
-LCS final project
-Design 101 deisgn
-Design postcard design *since i want to redo
-Design paper sculpture
-Design maximilsm design (final project) *can die wan
-Figures 2 portraits 6 anatomy study

wow.after listing all these
i really don't mind spending my birthday doing assignments d
seriously like that comic i shared on facebook
mum : still don't want to sleep ar?
me : doing assignments.
mum : this is madness .
me : O_O! madness?!?!??! madness?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
this is TOA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:DDDD bye

Friday, November 19, 2010

meh oh!

meh oh!
why is it when i'm free everyone ignore me oh
EVERYONE MM CHOI ME OH
beh song.. -..-!!!!!!

-_-

yesterday was too caught up with assignments
and guess what
the postcards no need to hand in today
so what for i rush and sleep so late?
i tak tau.cause i'm going to redo it again

last night
i had sleeping pill
yes.for the very first time of my life
apparently.it works. XDD
slept not so like a pig.
cause i woke up an hour plus before the alarm i guess
but still have to thank the sleeping pill
i ate 1.cause my mom told me to.
but my dad told me this morning that 1's too much -_-
half will do -____-


anyhow .today.
my gum hurts
badly
i need to go to the dentist
asap
it is swollen
i can't chew with the left side of my mouth
and guess what.
i can't smile too.cause it hurts
-_________________-
it's really pain!! TT
so sad

but on the bright side~ :
its so pain that i cant bear the pain while eating.so i'll eventually eat lesser = thinner.XDDDDDDDD
and i won't want to eat when i'm not hungry too right.so= even thinner.
muahahahhahahahaha -_-

last night.mm guy asked me whether i want to try casting for TOA model
its for the new TOA leaflets and websites

but.one of my friend casted d.and she's really pretty
so what for i go
when i'm way more ugly than anyone else right
i can imagine people saying :
omg how come this girl so ugly and still cast for this one.
sigh.nevermind.

lol.my face also a bit swollen d.XD
pain ><

tons of assignments or should i say final group projectSSS
i'm going to die
birthday's coming soon
don't think san they all will be free
all having finals
so am i la
going spent my birthday studying final test?
kinda envy zee that so many people plan for her birthday and wishes her already
even her birthday's on the 24th ><

so many friend's birthdays around the corner
and their birthday seems great

nevermind~ final's more important
there's always next year.. i think XD


after typing everything out.
i find : why is this post more to the emo XDD
bye :)

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

CREATE!

i emo liao
mien emo liao!

i need inspiration!
i need to create something!!!!
i need idea!

how do i create a series of postcards withouts any idea..
i ki siao liao

bye

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

reminisce ^^







some lil things..

still the old me....
eh but my hair's longer la .this looks short.XDDD *sampat -_-

i seriously don't understand why i like to blog so much lately
XD still cant fathom it out. nevermind


little small things
hahaha!
i did the same mistake as last week.same day
i left my pendrive at home~!
yet i ALREADY reminded myself last night.
and i thought i've already put in inside my bag
yet so proud to think that
i actually remember and learnt from my mistake
haha.i'm still so stupid and blur -_-
dad did not scold
and guess what.we already reached college when i realise that
so in the end we have to u-turn all the way back home to get a little
but very important thing -ma pendrive~which have my project inside -___-!
but then .
not bad also.hahaha
first : get to spend another 40 mins with dad in the cosy car
second : get to skip half and hour of history!! muahohohoho~ ><



after class went to print the project * AT LAST~
then ming tien .... hahaha
then i saw ah fhan.then i thought of his pendrive.then i chase after him
then i SHOUTED his name so loudly XP cause i'm afraid he'll be far away
and it was super embarassing!! cause i didnt know my voice.will be THAT LOUD
adui.so paiseh ><>blackpepper chicken rice.
when i look at my rice.it has vege!
then i asked : since when they have vege???
jul : ya lo.since when they give vege???

i continued eating.still wondering
since when they give vege...

suddenly...
jul : *laughs. you know right. people can just make you faint.by just a snap!
me : *blur.er.then.why suddenly this
jul : *laughs.cause i put the vege in your plate .there's even a trace of rice on the table but i flicked it under my plate
-___________________________________-



kokweimien you bodoh.. XD
blackpepper chicken got vege one. XDDDDDDDDDD


oh.so..without car.HOW TO GO HOME?!?!
yes.let me answer your ques ba.muahahahah XDDD
jordon sent me home
thanks jordon~! ^^
i really enjoy sitting in his car
this is what i always dream for la
a bf.who can send me to college every morning
and back home after class. :))
just sit inside the car.feeling comfy and talk to him at the same time.even when its jam.
it will still feel nice XD
ok.this is what i dream la.
but jordon aint my bf!
and i'm single! yes.muahahahahha -.- *siao liao
hahaha.but really thank him for sending me home
suppose to go eat brownies with TING SUE LYN~
but that girl went home early and left me and jordon behind
oh well.there's always next time :)
and now i'm going to end this
with a :D !








Monday, November 15, 2010

muahahahahhaha >

i cant sleep
so..
haha! my birthday wishes~
omg i'm so paiseh now
its ok
i'm just writing this for fun
might delete it later
XDDD

okie
what do i want
i want happiness~
everyday happy
everyone happy
no more bad things happening around the world
i don't want to see videos about how people bully the weak
i DISLIKE !
people out there who bully the weak ones ar
don't let me see you bullying
or you're gonna get from me man
i'm very ganas wan!!

XD ok.
then. i hope everyone will be healthy
especially my close ones
please take care and explore the journey of life together k :)

then.ngek ngek.i want a lomo cam~! or instax cam~! haha
in my dream.ok -___-
then..i wish to have....
a shoe? XD i only have 1 slipper now. TT
then..i wish to have suprises
haha.good ones of course.
then..haha.things girls will like.
clothes .accessories .bags .cute soft toys
i'm not really into soft toys but i dont know why no one ever give me big cute soft toys-_-
haha.everything wrapped with wrapping papers.ribbons.
LOL

all my friends together with me.laugh and crap together!
oh! famous amos cookies! i miss it!!!! XDD
oH! baskin robbins is promoting their ice cream bday cake lately!
any flavour!!! ><~!
but it must be super expensive.-_- nvm

hahahhahah.everything seems to be in my dream.nevermind~happy birthday to me~ XD

blogging~

so....XD
just feel like blogging before i start on my assignments
i spent my midnight last night in the police station
no worries
i didnt get caught cause of drugs or what so ever.XDD
its just a drunk 50 year old man driving and crashed into my mum's car
the impact was so big that my mum crashed into the front car
and so we had to report to the police
no worries again.my mum's fine.
she went to the doc today and no fractured bones
she's ok :) thank god :)
well.i mentioned 'mum's car' right.
well.its.actually my car
thanks to my dad -_-
who spontaneously asked my mum to drive my car down yesterday morning
and now i have no car to college
no idea how long
the guy said 2 week
let's see then
i wasn't able to take a picture of my car
cause it was midnight
and who will take they're dslr to a police station right.
my lao beh phone has no flash
what a night
and today
stupid cg
stupid stupid cg!!!!!
hanged when i clicked the save as button
WHY~~~~~
我接受唔到咯~~!
it's not the first time d
in the end
redo lo
-________________________- *fml?? XDDD
i can actually spend more time with mum as she send me home or to college.not bad right~ ^^




请原谅我
原谅我不成熟

Saturday, November 13, 2010

-__-

my eye's damn itchy
damn pain
eye drops doesnt seem to be effective on my eyessss

only mananged to finish 1 assignment today -.-
but i think i can complete most of it tomorrow :)
as long as i focus
and i was thinking
why treat them as assignments
they are something part of my passion right
i should enjoy :D
*don't know whether this thought can tahan until tomorrow or not. XD

and yes
oh gosh.i have no idea why
TT i'm suffering for few days d
oh please. i want to sleep
like a dead pig
throughout the whole night until morning
pleassssssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i'm someone who loves to sleep
i'm already forced to cut down my sleeping beauty time cause of assignments *passion XP
YET STILL GIVE ME INSOMNIA!!!
not exactly insomnia la but i always wake up for no reason.
FOR DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES
not asthma not what.of course i'm glad that its not asthma even when i didnt take the vitamins
SO WHY~
i had enough la.
weekdays macam ni
weekends pun macam ni
i'm going to be siao la

i want to be a pig
and enjoy my night .
sleeping.
feeling nothing.
but only comforts. :)
pretty pleaseeeee......

Friday, November 12, 2010

new~

a new look for my blog~
maybe not that nice but its ok~ i'll redesign it whenever i have the time to
its already friday
its basically another happy week *despite all the fmls .shhh XD
its literally a no life weekend again for this coming weekend.
cause of all the assignments..
let me see : drawing,CG,letterform,figures,LCS,design x___________________x
drawing 3++ hours
letterform 3+hours
figures 5+++ hours
design 5+++ hours
LCS 2+ hours
CG remaining hours
------------------------------------------
= 18 ++++++++++ hours .
just simplify it and make it 25 hours
48(2 days)-25(working hours)-16(sleeping time)-6 hours(makan+rest a while)
= omg 1 hour for ..fb? XD
this calculation just gave me a shock.
at first it was negative when i added leisure time -_-
TT maths just proven to me i'm literally .lifeless... :D
there's so many i need to tell
san~ i need you~
i somehow got myself a conclusion .which is in chinese. :D
'' 有时候,太多的幸福也是一种负担. ''
haha.yes.mien will also say things like that. XDD
zoi gian
* this is hakka
**mien's speaking hakka~ =D

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

犯贱

我觉得自己很犯贱

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

my bad day...

today's seriously my freaking bad day la
feel like posting it in the fmylife.com XD
its like this :
i had a seriously lifeless weekend.
rushing assignments.have to set my own alarm to wake myself up earlier to do assignments
and so.i''ve finished 90% of my assignments which are due on this week d
sounds not bad right~
yea.that's what i thought :
'' can sleep earlier everday d~ yea~ ^^ ''
spoke too soon la me
last night.
the starting of my bad day
slept around 12 plus.
ok la.quite early
i didnt drink coffee.
well.only a few sips.and yet a very diluted black coffee.early in the morning
no tea juga. instead i had hot chocolate before i sleep
so why exactly i had insomnia!!!!
nothing's bothering me.seriously.
in the end.AT LAST.i slept around.6 a.m plus.after struggling for a long period
2 hours later...
have to wake up for college
-_-
fml point 1 XDD
my eyes were red .can barely open my eyes la!!!
then as usual drove to college blabla reach pyramid parking
and then! WHERE'S MY PURSE!!
nevermind.just take the ticket.
went to print my essay first before class.
as usual the blur me.
forgot about the purse part.
so when about to pay that time
oh shit.no money!
-__-
so maybe this is
fml point 2
but luckily there's a friend beside.haha .pheww
went to class.chit chat.
omg! my letterform movie title assignment!!!
left it at home
-___-
fml point 3
right after class.have to go home right.so went to parking there.
it was about to rain already.
thinking to myself.luckily i'm fast enough.
then.oh shit
i have no money to pay for the parking
-..- have to walk back to class to borrow lo
already drizzling...quite heavily
i was already sneezing the whole morning in class and now this
-____-
fml point 4
nevermind.
reached home
took my assignments.and was thinking.
why not a last touch up on my letterform project.
okie~
after touching it up.neat. :) on my face
then i finished off my mee goreng mee sedap
*extra egg.XDD
thinking :'' haha.today's not THAT BAD ~ ''
then ciao back to college. and~! my purse was in my car all the time -..-
my kakak already told me this morning that it was in lyn's bag! it slipped in!!!
i thought she told me something else -..-
ok .nevermind~
reach college.went to myone studio to print my project
OH SHIT
my pendrive's still at home connecting to my laptop
bagus!!!
a project which i already finished LAST WEEK
and i can't pass up on time.
bagus sangat
fml point 5
-_______-
reached class.sigh.
thinking :
aiyo.ok la.its over
then i realised.my movie title original picture
in my pendrive too
itu assignment juga siap-ed during weekend ....
x____x
fml point 6
i'm still not that sad
until Gabriel said to me
'is this excuse acceptable?' and bla some stuffs.
i'm so sad.so moody
i know it's my fault.but it's not that i want right
and i finished everything earlier than everyone else
why's all these happening to me....
damn moody.makes me sound like i'm someone with no discipline
and like to make excuses
:(
but well.cant blame him right.
if i stand in his position.
i might think the same way too
and then today
we got back our previous assignments
sigh
inferior again
why can't i be better?
i don't get it
but i'm somehow numb.
about feeling this way
i'm used to it already
it's like.
''you ain't good la kok wei mien
just accept the fact and live you life
you cant be better wan la
forget about it la''
this statement
it's like.already implanted in me
so.ya la.nevermind la
BUT
i can only say
today's my bad day ok
that's all
for sure there's ups and downs
so this will be my down
and starting from tomorrow
will all be UPS~
haha
-.-
*oh yea.despite all the fmylife points
well.i don't really feel fml la
hahahahahahahaha
-_-