Monday, September 27, 2010

its empty

no one seems to care
the people i care most dont seems to care
the person that cares.i no more allowed that caring to be given to me
feeling so empty.but its ok.
i'll go through it.
cause no one's duty is to stay there and always care about another
maybe.i'm forgotten
any volunteers ? ...

meh oh

since last thurs night sick until sekarang
sorethroat flu fever cough.cough until today still coughing
medic seems useless
meh oh
but this aint the saddest part
...

Monday, September 20, 2010

no more

miracle don't just happens.
my wish was not granted.
i missed it.
might be for the rest of my life.
no more desires around..

Saturday, September 18, 2010

i need miracle

i just realised
that its going to be the end of the month
i wonder why time fly so fast
i mean.can you slow down your pace
just for this month?
cause by the end of this month
i'll miss something.might be for the rest of my life :(
and i still don't get to approach
can miracle happen ?
just for this once.

Friday, September 17, 2010

emoing? or not

why am i such a failure

-ugly
-cant even draw nicely
-not creative
-always out of ideas
-cant create and design

and A LOT MORE

note : i'm not sad or what now.just don't even have self-esteem

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

eeeemoeeee

anoh
emoee d
back to the
'dont like to take pics mien' d
:(

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

qm family

today's an awesome day~
with san san~ <3
with jeat~ today dai sai :)
with wenxing~ 38 and ke ai as usual
with yeemin~ so call 'smarter' d *doubt that .oh! hao lian!
with crystal~ haha.yong po
with jia hwa~ couple d !! jeat say her girl d.XD
with ahnam~ haha. mou ye gong
with yanjang~ yong forever
with xingkun~ babai lo
with zhensheng~ haha.diam lo
with linfoong~ romeo baked the cake+organized . xingku lo~
with yiwei~ so called helped with the cake =='' and no more classic look! XD
love you guys so much la! how come ~! eee :)



Tuesday, September 7, 2010

i didnt know

yes .i didnt know
i didnt know you feel that way
to me you're still very important.
same as you.you do stand a very important role in my life
cause you're you.
what we've been through.NOTHING can replace those
you're not the only lonely one.
cause i am too
there's so many things i wish to tell.
but i'm scared.cause everything i tell its like.you won't want to listen
cause i feel that you don't know how to respond
to me.all you like to talk about is only suju and i really don't update anymore
not only that i don't have that time.even if i have.i'm really lazy to search for those stuffs
i don't even know where to do research for my own assignments
and when all your topic's are suju.i really dont know how
*but i still watch kbs if i watch tv.and lately music bank really don't siapatu.not nice somemore those songs
same thing.i dont want to bored you out with my stuffs
yes.i might have a lot of fun with my coll mates
but back at home.when i need to unload myself on other stuffs
you're always the first that came across my mind.
but i'll hesitate and consider a lot.what if you're very excited about suju
i dont want to kacau you.i cant chat with you about them too cause i dont know anything
i have no people to share my stuffs too
cause.i miss that feeling
me and you.sharing everything together
whether its good or bad.
the way we talk.discuss.laugh.crap.scold
it belongs to only you and me
and i did not delete anything
how can i bear to delete those pictures??
i have it all saved nicely in my com!
and memories!
i know i'm forgetful.but how will i forget those memories
melaka trip still vivid in my mind
and i still tell ppl around me that how fun and nice it was when i went with you all
i'm .very.easily.adapted to new environment
seriously.i know that since .decades ago
therefore if my lifestyle change.
i'll fully immerse myself into that life
which i know i'm a bit wrong in this
cause there will always be a barrier.
this is my own problem
i know i always have this problem
and also because of we're now in a total different environment?
you wont understand if i talk about arts
and i know you're not interested
same goes with i have no idea what's your what.
and sometimes i see you and your friends.
i feel the same too actually *you see how alike we are :)
its like.you all have the same topic and interest
see each other so often and so fun
here and there
i dont want to bother you too
please dont just emo .tell me
we've been through so much
we dont have to hide anything from each other
and get all upset
no more please.i hope no more
our relationship are way beyond those d


Friday, September 3, 2010

ONE!

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wow.sem 1's over
so fast
sem 2's next monday.anticipating? hmm. maybe?
but one thing for sure.i want to go to class. XD
i'm not sure whether sem 2 will be as fun as sem 1
with all the stress i experienced
all the lack of sleep.lack of energy.i dont know.
'passion.you still here?'
i don't like to draw or design or do just because we need to you know
i want the OHM ! hahaha
but.sure.i'll enjoy it.haha
ironically.i actually cant wait to paint.hahaaaa.
and i thought i hated painting during design last sem
wow.sem 1.i cant believe that its over
i still remember the very first day
and all the joy we had in class.we're a bunch of crazy people!
XD i'm glad i met u guys.i was shock at first.
to know that i went to a class.full of bananas
hahaha.thinking.why me in this class???
well.fyi.i'm a typical chinese ed girl
with a chinese background living in a chinese surrounding for the past 17 yrs
and its rather fun.to see the shocked look on your faces when i speak chinese.
hahahha.you all are so cute
CD1005-1 !
listen up.you all.definitely brightened my college life
and i know.the sheer joy we had.will continue on sem 2 :)
so now~ let me introduce my lectures and tutors.

inilah my Drawing 1 lec :Zelin
he might look slightly older in this pic.but in real life he look SO YOUNG!
i first thought he's around 23.but NO! he is 30!!!OMG~ XD
and this pic.haha.teaching composition ar~ haha ==
dan ini.my Drawing 1 tutor : Roderick
haha.macam very yeng le. *jangan kena tipu oh.XD

hohohoho.wondering whose sexy back?
he's my Figure 1 lec : Zhuo yu~
before you ask him anything regarding your figures .THINK~! first.haha
'what you think?' -quoted @_@
yes~ i'll think! ==

haha.last day d.still scolding .the middle red shirt man

he's my Figure 1 tutor oh : Xiong ie
i always call him evil though.hmm.but.why ar? haha
he's quite nice ar .sometimes.XDDDD

Design 1 lec : I-Ching~~

she's really nice~! and she loves complicated works.i gave her my first XD
her assignments are the one who always made me stay up for the WHOLE NIGHT~!
but the outcomes.not bad i think? XD love her


LAST BUT NOT LEAST !!!
Finished art lec : CHRISTOPHER REIS~!

ahhahaa.cute le.haha. i don't know how to describe him.but i mmg like him a lot la
he's very pretty.yes.pretty.i look into his eyes once.and wow.haha.WOW
he uses SKII oh~ and damn stylish
all this clothes are from hong kong .uk
and most of them branded oh.XD

and i still have Computer Graphics lec : Irwin
quoted : 'you want me to repeat?don't want ar? i want ar~ hehe.' = ='''''
and anderson .my History of Arts lec : Anderson
he can be really sarcastically funney~ XD
i heard he's REALLY scary but .i find him quite nice actually.XD
and intimidating Miss Choo~ : Language and Communication skills lec
she's .yea.indimidating.XD
last.Malaysian Studies lec : ms Fadzilah.hmm
nothing much about her just like nothing much about ms.XDD


lecs and tutors that's all~
muahahaha.and now~ my college mates~ :)))))


we're always together XD
this.is.ms.JULIANA
one word i always use to describe her : CUTE

she can be really zha dao at times.and unexpected.
so GAGA~
*she's a big fan of lady gaga.she's actually a mini version of lady gaga herself. :)

and this girl here.hoho.SUE LYN~!

she's pretty.and the way she dresses.so mature.
she has a very obvious style of her own :)
jul says she's floral.haha.yea~
<3> .i find she always make us laugh.
and we always do epic faces together. :D
oh ya! she's one of the bananas~ heheee

its just us =D
this is MOM~ haha : Serena
i dont know why i started calling her mom.but since then.yea.mom~ XD
she's lovely~ she has this very special accent of her own oh.
british+australian? haha .
typical bananaaaaaa~ but buddhist! O_O hahahaha

we're crazy together. we laugh.we crap.we.yea.anything.haha

my mates.haha.
it was our first LCS formal presentation~ sry sry sry sry~ ^^
i love them so much.so crazy.so fun.so carefree.so lame.so funny.
so lovely.
there will be some .who wont be with us for the next sem.
at least not for all the subs. :(
i miss your lameness already guys
but we'll see each other still ! yea!
<3>


ah~ and now.hahaa.since i never really post my works on net before.
cause i don't think its good.
but its like everyone's posting.so.i'll post it here! haha
this is my Drawing 1 drawing : the top one was my first drawing in class
while the bottom one's my last drawing.its also our test
see the difference? :)
one thing good about Drawing 1 : NO ASSIGNMENTS .haha
and yea.Figure 1.i took quite a lot of pics for figures.
this was my second figures assignment i think.
wow.quite long agothis is an eye.hahaha *废话 = =
i like this girl. :)
can guess which is mine? XD
bottom 2nd from left.this is how after 'the eye' above is complete
while this.our figure test : right-first figure drawing on the first day of class
left -last day figure test
which one you like? haha.i somehow think the first one is not bad .hahahaha
and yea.this old man.one of my favourites maybe? :)
and this thing below!!!! is the one who took away my first (Design1)
cause of this.i stayed up whole night.look at the details.
trust me.for those who are not studying arts.its very time consuming
look at the details and you'll know.if you can take a closer look that is.XDD
is this my first painting for Design?cant remember.
i dont really like it.cause to me .its lyk high school student's work
however.i got excellent. but i dont think i deserve it
even i stayed up whole night too for this
cause you should definitely see jul's work.walao~ gaga.haha
and TADAH~~~~~~~~~~~~ my Design final project :initial design
heeeheee.nothing much to say : i like it :)
of course this is only a small part of my assignments.
for TOAs.you know right.haha
i know i'm always busy with assignments
and missed quite a lot of outings with you guys (qm family)
but.its really just my college
TOA-the one academy-tons of assignments :)
and i can be really stressed up
i hope you guys can understand
but i think now all understood d right.hehehe
love you all
next sem's coming!means more infernal life! haha
jkjk~ i do enjoy the hectic lifestyle = =''??
i know i'll get all down and stressed up .again.
so suffocating! i need a breathe !!! but..
hey.that's a part of growing up right.hahaa
mien can do it
trust me trust mien.haha =..=
art.is not just drawing
arts are way beyond arts
:)


Thursday, September 2, 2010

i love hot chocolate

a cup of hot choc before sleeping
isnt it nice?
and now i'm drunk
is the hot choc? or is it me?
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
i find.i have no one to talk to neh.
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
cause.they give me a feeling.that they don't feel like listening to it
LOL~!
i know right.i'm ugly.i'm pathetic.stupid.stupid.stupid
haha.kok wei mien ar kok wei mien~
think.who are you. XD
how stupid.that i have to use laughters to cover the bitter in me now
= ='''
bye